What's meant for you...

What’s meant for you won’t go by you.  That’s okay if you weren’t fussed for what’s gone by you.  However, if what has gone by is the 9am ferry from Skye to North Uist and you are sitting on a road side vomiting into a ditch, I think we can agree this is a disappointing reality.  For those of a sensitive disposition, I apologise.  But like all half decent stories, there are peaks and troughs.  Months of confinement is no good thing for a seascapist.  Planning a trip to a remote cottage on North Uist was the light in my lockdown blues.  I had underestimated how much I was looking forward to the ferry journey, that fresh blustery breeze that tells you adventure awaits as you cling to the bannister of the Cal Mac ferry.  There is something very special about travelling over the sea.  However, it was not to be.  Leaving home at stupid o’clock in the morning for the long drive to Skye played havoc with my stomach.  The winding roads seemed relentless and it became very apparent that I would not catch the ferry.  My heart sank.  However, I was in no state to argue with it.  I sought sanctuary in Fort Augustus where my faith in humanity was restored.  I refuse to use the “C” word as I am quite fed up with it, needless to say no one is keen to take in a poorly guest.  However, one wonderful person gave me a room to allow my head and stomach to catch up with each other from the wiggly roads of the Scottish Highlands.  I will be forever grateful to him and all people with a measure of common sense and kindness.

Once recovered, new plans were hatched.  Ardnamurchan has been on the go-to list for a while now and for a number of reasons has never quite worked out.  This was its moment.  It turns out I am better with wiggly roads when there’s daylight.  Heading straight for Sanna Bay to steal the last of this daylight, I poured myself into my wet suit and waded into the water.  Swimming out to little islets and rocks, views of cliffs and lighthouses framed a sunset.  Peachy skies and turquoise green waters dazzled the senses after a dark and wobbly 24 hours.  This is what I needed.  This was where I was meant to be.  As much as I missed the ferry journey to the Outer Hebrides, Ardnamurchan was a decent consolation prize.

I am frequently wound up about my inability to go anywhere without a map.  Going off the grid is something that leaves me feeling out of control and I have a fear of missing something wonderful.  On a map I can see spots that make me curious but without one, I could be driving past amazing sites.  Loosening up and treating this trip as a very different kind of trip meant that my art work was created under new conditions too.  I have a sketchbook of work that does not have place names, other than Ardnamurchan lighthouse.  On one of the days, a local recommended a jaunt up a hill.  With every moment feeling precious, I’m not always keen to spend much time looking at my feet trudging through mud. 

A fine view with decent company.

A fine view with decent company.

However, I was so glad I did.  Views of Rum and Eigg opened up on the horizon, a strong purple against the blues of sky and sea.  I could see Skye and all the way over to the other side where Coll and Tiree floated in faded lilac on the water.  Sketching in the last warmth before autumn, I was kept company by some local sheep.  They were not obliging enough to stay still, but it felt special to share the moment with them.

Painting at Ardnamurchan lighthouse, I was filled with awe and excitement as my fascination with lighthouses grows.  This one is of course by one of the Stevenson family and notes flavours of Egyptian design.  It also homes a tea room close by and 2 collies.  I am a fan of all of those things.  As my time on the peninsula drew to a close, I could not help but feel filled with gratitude.  Gratitude for the kindness and patience of others.  Gratitude for my wetsuit, a birthday gift earlier this year.  Thankfulness for weather that showed this coast in its full splendour.  And dare I say it, but thankfulness that finally I made it to Ardnamurchan, even at the cost of missing a ferry trip.

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Sometimes life does not go the way we plan.  Sometimes we don’t get what we want.  And sometimes, that is no bad thing.

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